Well... I'm single now

iIntrigue · Posted: 09 Apr 2007 09:39 am Post subject: Well... I'm single now

I suppose...

Happened yesterday and I'm just sitting here at work trying not to think about it...

Day's kinda passing slowly but yeah..

I dunno, just... shocking in a way. Big empty hole >.<

Anyways, to all them ladies out there... e-girlfriend please?

I'd probably settle for a hug right now... =(

This place is so empty,
My thoughts are so tempting,
I don’t know how it got so bad.
Sometimes it’s so crazy,
that nothing can save me,
But it’s the only thing that I have.

iIntrigue · Posted: 09 Apr 2007 10:42 am Post subject:

I'm Moop. Emily's Emily.

[11:11] Emily: ben..... if ure online...please..answer me!
[11:11] Moop x2: hello
[11:11] Emily: you didn't answer...to all i said..
[11:11] Moop x2: i just got on 20 minutes ago
[11:11] Emily: ok
[11:11] Moop x2: this is the first message i got
[11:12] Emily: Emily says:
ben....please talk to me after...
Emily says:
i ..... don't wanna do this..
Emily says:
i wanna try and find a solution..
Emily says:
seriously
Emily says:
so...yeah...please come talk to me
Emily says:
i promise... i want to stay with you... if we can figure out a way to make this work...i really want to
Emily says:
ben..... if ure online...please..answer me!
Moop x2 says:
hello
Emily says:
you didn't answer...to all i said..
Moop x2 says:
i just got on 20 minutes ago

[11:12] Moop x2: Emily, there is no solution.
[11:13] Emily: but... i don't want to do this
[11:13] Moop x2: you know it
[11:13] Emily: its wrong
[11:13] Emily: i know it
[11:13] Moop x2: you're right
[11:13] Moop x2: it is wrong
[11:13] Moop x2: yet, if you go forward
[11:13] Moop x2: and you look at what everything that happened means
[11:13] Moop x2: it won't work
[11:13] Moop x2: Let me quote something
[11:14] Moop x2: , (Bride/Groom), take you (Groom/Bride), to be my (wife/husband), to have and to hold from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish; from this day forward until death do us part.

[11:14] Emily: ....
[11:14] Emily: thats not fair
[11:14] Moop x2: It won't happen
[11:14] Moop x2: you know it
[11:15] Emily: i would have stayed with you
[11:15] Emily: but you don't want it anyways
[11:15] Moop x2: but it would have been useless
[11:15] Moop x2: this simply proves it
[11:15] Emily: so its all me
[11:15] Emily: im the bad one
[11:15] Emily: im worthless as a person
[11:16] Moop x2: No, you don't love me. Thats what i think. You think you do, but you don't. Because love is being able to face anything, to do everything for absolutely nothing. To never back down and never surrender and never giving up no matter how hard the journey is. Not runnign and hiding, but standing strong, even in the most stupid situations.
[11:16] Moop x2: You want to love me, but you don't
[11:16] Moop x2: And I suppose one day you'll find somoene where you can do all of the above
[11:16] Moop x2: and then you'll truly be happy
[11:17] Moop x2: when u can say
[11:17] Emily: i don't want to be happy
[11:17] Moop x2: Nothing matters to me, except being with you
[11:17] Moop x2: but no
[11:17] Moop x2: thats not the case here
[11:17] Moop x2: This would have happened eventually
[11:17] Moop x2: seriously,
[11:17] Moop x2: You couldn't even face me with this
[11:18] Moop x2: i called you
[11:18] Moop x2: yet you had to do it over msn
[11:18] Moop x2: I agree it sucks
[11:18] Emily: ...
[11:18] Moop x2: I'm hurting just as much as you
[11:18] Moop x2: but if you take a step back out of this situation
[11:18] Moop x2: and lookat it
[11:18] Emily: forget it...
[11:18] Moop x2: its just not right
[11:18] Emily: ill just....
[11:18] Emily: go back to my whole
[11:19] Emily: and go back to what i was..
[11:19] Emily: wtvr...
[11:19] Emily: anyhow
[11:19] Emily: i can't do this
[11:20] Moop x2: I know
[11:20] Moop x2: thats why it wouldnt work
[11:20] Emily: where do i send the ipod..and stuff?
[11:20] Moop x2: keep it. Chuck it in your closet like you did the last time i suppose.
[11:20] Emily: no...its yours
[11:21] Moop x2: I don't want it
[11:21] Emily: so is the ring
[11:21] Moop x2: I don't want any of it
[11:21] Emily: you can sell it backt o the store
[11:21] Moop x2: I wanted to be loved, but I think it would just end up hurting more
[11:21] Moop x2: If anything
[11:21] Moop x2: even if we could get over the situation
[11:21] Moop x2: just your whole philosophy
[11:22] Moop x2: on how youre going to feel guilty
[11:22] Moop x2: hiding
[11:22] Moop x2: running
[11:22] Moop x2: I can't do that
[11:22] Moop x2: If you can't stand with me
[11:22] Moop x2: when something hard happens
[11:22] Moop x2: when something bad happens
[11:22] Moop x2: so that when i turn around
[11:22] Moop x2: to expect someone there
[11:22] Moop x2: to stand and support me
[11:22] Moop x2: but that no one is there
[11:22] Emily: i told you...
[11:22] Moop x2: it won't
[11:22] Moop x2: wokr.
[11:22] Emily: im a worthless pesonm
[11:23] Moop x2: No
[11:23] Moop x2: you don't love me
[11:23] Moop x2: thats all
[11:23] Emily: no...
[11:23] Moop x2: yes
[11:23] Emily: im worthless
[11:23] Moop x2: you like me
[11:23] Emily: im a coward
[11:23] Moop x2: you don't love me
[11:23] Moop x2: because love can conquer all that
[11:23] Moop x2: if u truly loved
[11:23] Moop x2: truly felt
[11:23] Moop x2: you'd be able to do anything for hte person
[11:23] Moop x2: ANYTHIGN
[11:23] Emily: well..if i don't love you...then i wont love anyone
[11:23] Moop x2: lol
[11:23] Moop x2: I'm your first boyfriend emily
[11:23] Emily: no...
[11:23] Moop x2: and i suppose I'm adick
[11:23] Emily: i mean...
[11:23] Moop x2: u'll find someone else
[11:24] Emily: i....can't love more than this
[11:24] Emily: i have no emotions
[11:24] Emily: i told you
[11:24] Moop x2: You don't know that
[11:24] Emily: lol...
[11:24] Emily: yes i know
[11:24] Moop x2: you don't "want" me
[11:24] Emily: im an empty shallow person
[11:24] Moop x2: you wnat me to be "there"
[11:24] Moop x2: but not me.
[11:24] Emily: i love myself
[11:24] Moop x2: exactly
[11:24] Moop x2: When u love the other person
[11:24] Moop x2: more than you loveyourself
[11:24] Moop x2: thats when it'llw ork
[11:24] Emily: no but the point is
[11:24] Emily: im never gonna love anyone
[11:24] Emily: ill just find something else
[11:25] Emily: that...i can stand
[11:25] Emily: i guess
[11:25] Emily: or wtvr...
[11:25] Emily: ill just work all my life
[11:25] Emily: thats good enough for me
[11:25] Moop x2: You don't love me Emily
[11:25] Emily: i don't love anyone if u wanna put it that way
[11:25] Moop x2: you care aboutme
[11:25] Moop x2: but you don't love me
[11:25] Emily: but i want to be with you most
[11:26] Moop x2: because i'm the only person
[11:26] Emily: yeah because im a looser
[11:26] Emily: i might as well...not be here
[11:26] Moop x2: Why are you saying all this?
[11:26] Moop x2: It won't change the situation
[11:26] Emily: because... really...who cares if im here or not?
[11:26] Moop x2: the situation is it will not work
[11:26] Moop x2: and this just proved it
[11:26] Moop x2: you basically showed that
[11:26] Moop x2: when something bad happens
[11:26] Moop x2: you cannot be there for me
[11:27] Moop x2: yet if something bad happened to you
[11:27] Moop x2: you knwo I wouldn't run away
[11:27] Moop x2: thats why you want me
[11:27] Moop x2: but it doesn't work one way
[11:27] Emily: but im not running away
[11:27] Moop x2: Even between friends
[11:27] Emily: i feel like... its unfair to you
[11:27] Moop x2: friends should always have each others backs
[11:27] Emily: what gonna happen
[11:27] Moop x2: erm
[11:27] Moop x2: Unfair?
[11:27] Moop x2: everythings unfair
[11:27] Emily: es
[11:27] Moop x2: the breakups unfair
[11:27] Moop x2: the relationships unfair
[11:27] Moop x2: continuing would be unfair
[11:27] Emily: its all my fault
[11:27] Moop x2: but its life
[11:27] Emily: everything is
[11:27] Moop x2: No
[11:27] Moop x2: we're just not made for each other
[11:27] Moop x2: every fight
[11:28] Moop x2: just proved it
[11:28] Moop x2: but we kept trying
[11:28] Moop x2: kept trying
[11:28] Moop x2: but I'm giving up
[11:28] Moop x2: i'm really sorry
[11:28] Moop x2: I can't do it
[11:28] Emily: ok

PuReAzNpRiDe · Posted: 09 Apr 2007 05:01 pm Post subject:

ill lend you my left shoulder..

Ykwan · Posted: 09 Apr 2007 05:37 pm Post subject:

well ben life goes on always keep that in mind

tommrow's another day full of new people and events so keep ur head up

oh and u might want to try no contact at this point because talkin to her / seeing her will only make u lose ur conviction in ur decision

just my thoughts lol lmk if u need to talk or anything

PkRage · Posted: 09 Apr 2007 07:17 pm Post subject:

If my opinion matters your right on with what you said. I dont know u guy's situation but what u said about it all is right. I've been married almost 3 years. Yep got married when I was only 17. We had problems like ur having when we 1st got started but like u said we BOTH worked on it and pulled through it. Now we hardely ever argue about nething other than money (which is gonna happen period) but even when we do we both see each other's side and both take our parts in fixing it. Not just me or just her BOTH of us.

My opinion stay away for a bit.. couple weeks maybe.. maybe even a couple months... if she wakes up and things change u'll see it.. if it doesn't then it wasn't worth trying for.

But hey like the other man said life goes on and shit happens... ALOT... but there'll ALWAYS be somebody to help u through it... even it is here..

aaron_cam · Posted: 09 Apr 2007 07:37 pm Post subject:

aww man im really sorry to hear that but dont let it get to u too much
everything happens for a reason

iIntrigue · Posted: 10 Apr 2007 08:37 am Post subject:

Actually we had a conversation yesterday... things went pretty good...

Was a phone conversation so I guess that helped. Instead of ending with tears, it ended with laughter so... yay!

PawBear · Posted: 10 Apr 2007 09:57 am Post subject:

Wow im really sory to hear about that ben. It really sucks when you lose someone. my last girlfreind broke up with me because she liked some other guy. that really pissed me off i was about to break that kids neck. but no worrys i got a new gf. Really sorry for you ben.

iiheartvivian · Posted: 10 Apr 2007 01:49 pm Post subject:

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PuReAzNpRiDe · Posted: 10 Apr 2007 04:52 pm Post subject:

Moostafa · Posted: 12 Apr 2007 01:06 am Post subject:

im so sry man
my relationship wasn't as deep as that but it still sucked when it was over
i hope that you guys are still on good terms, and that you find someone else

iIntrigue · Posted: 12 Apr 2007 07:41 am Post subject:

we're still takling o.O

chewster77 · Posted: 12 Apr 2007 04:06 pm Post subject:

i don't know if this will affect your decision to continue with this chick or not but i used to date a girl where all we did was fight, the relationship started my junior year of high school and went off and on up until december of 2005. damn, i guess that is about 12 years. not that your relationship is anything like the one i was in but all in all it would be good advice for anyone who is in a relationship that has constant fights...

anyhow, my point is we fought viciously, over stupid stuff, shit that didnt' matter, we never did anything big to piss ea. other off like cheating or w/e but there was sooo much drama in our relationship, but we kept trying and trying and trying. we would break up and get back together 2 or 3 months later. but it always went back to the same. we both promised each other that we would change but when you miss someone you are a different person, once your back together you eventually go back to your old ways, this is what happened with us and of course the fighting would start back up again. i bet you we broke up and got back together 15-20 times, no joke!

my point is people typically don't change in relationships, and people can't make people in relationships change. what i've found true in many of my relationships is that once they get used to you shit starts coming out of the woodwork. they begin to tell you everything they don't like about you and how you need to change those things. that's not fair. if there is something you don't like about someone you should be upfront about it in the beginning of the relationship and not 3 months down the road...

i could go on and on but i should stop while i'm ahead

damn, i'm glad i got this off my shoulders, lol, i am definitely venting...

myszka · Posted: 13 Apr 2007 11:46 pm Post subject:

Andy · Posted: 15 Apr 2007 03:27 pm Post subject:

ben if my g/f was ft, i'd trade for 10k fg. but she's not dry

sorry buddy. IM FT THOUGH! iso 10k fg

kawaki_911 · Posted: 10 Sep 2014 09:24 pm Post subject:

Sorry for you bro

SuppLied · Posted: 26 Dec 2014 04:40 pm Post subject:

Cheer up, we've all been there, well most of us sad